YAY! I kept a little person alive now for 8 weeks! Happy ‘8 weeks’ birthday Liberty!

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This little girl is my world! Now we have hit the 8 week milestone and no one is as shocked as me that I managed to keep this little person alive as I could hardly look after myself before she came! Continue reading “YAY! I kept a little person alive now for 8 weeks! Happy ‘8 weeks’ birthday Liberty!”

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Back to work for half a day to help with my anxiety! People think I am crazy but to me I need to get back into it so I can realise that they can cope without me and help curb that fear of missing out! I am looking forward to it but I’m sure that will change within 10mins! 🤣 Gutted that I can’t guarantee a seat anymore as have no bump! #missmybump

Are you prepared? Physically ✅ Medically ✅ Mentally – ❌ – Overcoming my Fear and Mental Blocks – Open Letter to Liberty

Dear L

As you have seen, I have prepared everything from Liberty’s nursery to my visual birth plan, met with my care team several million times to prepare myself medically and packed my bags ready for labour. With all this, you could say that I was ready! That couldn’t be any further from the truth! I am so unprepared mentally. You hear many stories that fear and mental blocks can physically stop something from happening , this can apparently be the same with labour. Once you have spoken out loud and released the negative thoughts and fear and let them go, things start to happen.  With 5 days to go, I need to learn to let go and become mentally prepared.

Back to the Birth Bible (Milli’s book) there is a section about overcoming fears and mental blocks so I have decided to review the list of ideas (Page 142) and chosen to write a letter to Liberty. This letter will explain how I feel about the birth and how I feel about her. I know this letter won’t be easy to write but will be an honest open letter of all the feelings I have addressed to my daughter. So here goes…

Dear Liberty

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Happy ‘full term’ day – 37 weeks today!

Happy 37 weeks! Classed as ‘full term’ so Lib is safe to come out at anytime! How about now please Liberty 🙏 I just CAN’T WAIT to meet you! My baby girl! #futurebestfriend

21 days until due date ! So feet up with living in a dressing gown, drinking tea and watching morning TV and taking advantage of this time now ! Happy maternity leave!

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#babyshowergoals

The baby shower was amazing yesterday! I am so thankful to have some amazing friends! The request for books for Liberty to create a library for her was a success! Asked people to bring a book which reminded them of their childhood or ones that taught important lessons and so happy with the selection n! I just need to add my additions of ‘Funnybones’ and ‘The Magic Key’ and Dave’s addition of the ‘Manchester United Annual 2018-19’ 👶🏻💦📚

#SkoolsoutforSummer! Maternity Leave starts now!

I am feeling such a wide variety of emotion! I have now finished work for maternity leave! It has been a stressful day with network issues, cancelled trains and my system crashing 10 minutes before I am supposed to leave #standard ! 4 weeks until Liberty is due so let the nesting commence and when I can crack open my Prosecco! I am so thankful to all everyone at work for your kind gifts, messages and support and can’t wait for her to meet her extended family! 🤰🏻➡️🤱🏻

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Before candlelit dinners and ‘do not disturb’ turns into Bottle feed and Bedtime stories – Introduction to the trend of babymoons

People have asked me many times whether we were going to take a break just the two of us before Liberty arrives.  Apparently there is a trend that expectant parents do before child birth which is referred to as a babymoon!  This means having one last relaxing/romantic holiday as a childless couple. It is almost bittersweet! You get a reason to go on holiday however it will never be the same again! As candlelit dinners and ‘do not disturb’ turns into Bottle feed and Bedtime stories at 7pm.

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My mask is starting to crack!

Today has been a bad day for me to be honest! I have had a great day with my niece Amber but I am exhausted now! Not just physically but mentally! I am experiencing a lot of anxiety at the moment and my mask is starting to crack and can’t seem to hide it that much longer. I am nervous for the multi agency Mental Health planning meeting on Wednesday, maternity Leave is less than 3 weeks away and feeling unprepared and to top it off, I having a few personal problems where my mood swings aren’t been understood therefore have a negative impact in my relationships! All I want is to be understood! In particular, people to understand what it means to have bipolar! I feel a bit lost at the moment with so much going on that I am struggling to keep my shit together! I can’t control my mood at the best of times and especially at the moment adding pregnancy to the mix, I am an absolute NIGHTMARE! I can be unreasonable, angry, ridiculous, overreact then excited, obsessive and loved up within a matter of minutes! I hate that this happens 😢 I just don’t know what to do! I am going to try get some sleep, everything normally feels better after a good sleep 🤞🏻
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